Andrew McMahon — Learn to Dance (1/9/2013)
some people spend their whole lives in search of comfort and security, maybe all people, maybe me. still, this drifting towards the wonder of what could be, this pushing at the unknown and uncomfortable, to me feels something like peace. blistering peace.
Jack’s Mannequin || Annie Use Your Telescope (Acoustic)
It started feeling like October
hahaha Oh hey, you were with me! Thanks for giving me an excuse to talk about it!
February 9, 2012. (How was it that long ago? God. How have I not been to a concert in almost a year? That’s depressing.) Jack’s Mannequin at Irving Plaza in NYC. Allen Stone and Jukebox the Ghost opened. Quite possibly my favorite show I’ve ever been to, which makes me really glad that it was my last Jack’s show, because it was so perfect. We waited outside in the freezing cold for what? 8 hours? (Two days in a row, because we also saw them the day before.) Got front row center for the second day in a row. Andrew is always energetic but he was more energetic at this show than I’ve ever seen him and he just seemed so happy. Everything about it was magical and perfect. My BFF caught the set list and gave it to me because she’s the best ever and Andrew signed it for me after the show and it is now in a frame on my wall.
I want to go back and re-live that day so badly that it makes me want to cry when I think about it.
Wrecking Ball Heart - Jack’s Mannequin
this is gonna be a weird one to write.
So, as most fans have known for a while now, but was set in stone this afternoon, Jack’s Mannequin is disbanding and playing their last show in California in November. and, as most of you know, Andrew was my very favorite musician for the majority of my teen years and most of college. So I feel a bit obligated to reflect.
I’ve only experienced two of my favorite bands breaking up: A Small Victory, a local-ish band, in 2005, and The Format in 2008. With both of those I was incredibly emotional and heartbroken over it. Things are different this time, though.
Everything in Transit guided me through high school and The Glass Passenger helped me through a rough summer in 2008 and with my transition and move to college. I traveled miles and miles and hours and hours to see him perform so many times that I’ve lost count. His shows had an affect on me like no other band ever has; it was the ultimate emotional rollercoaster, in the best way. I would scream and laugh and smile and dance and sing and cry and watch quietly and then dance and laugh and sing again. I’ll always remember his live shows as some of the happiest memories I’ve ever had.
If I had to use one word to describe Andrew and his music, it would be genuine. He was one of the very first people that made me *feel* things with his music and he was one of the biggest influences on my love of music. I feel like this is a common trait for big fans of JM/SoCo… everyone I know who considers Andrew to be (one of) their favorite musician(s) are some of the most genuine people I know with the biggest passion for music. I don’t think that’s a coincidence.
I’m not heartbroken by this “break-up.” I know that Andrew will continue to put out music. This actually feels right, oddly enough. Jack’s was with me through my most formative years and has absolutely helped influence the person I am today. Now I’m a college graduate and I’ve grown up and changed so much. As sad as I am that I’ll never see Andrew perform as Jack’s Mannequin again, I don’t need him anymore. The music did its job. It’s the end of an era and I’m okay with that. I feel happy that he was able to do what he did.
Sorry y’all, had to bring out the cheeze for my own sake. Love ya always Andrew.